Do you ever want a do-over? I think we’ve all been there. Sometimes I find myself there on a daily basis. Wishing I could rewind time and respond differently, wishing I could slow down and focus on what really matters, feeling guilty for reacting with anger, impatience, anxiety or stress.
Yesterday, I caught myself so wrapped up in work that I was forgetting to focus on my children. As I scrambled to get something done, I was overlooking the needs of my kids. I rushed to get my data points in and hit send on my email. By that time, two girls were crying and dinner time was nearly over. In my mind, it had to get done right then… but why? At what cost?
God has a humorous way of showing us our faults sometimes. The next morning when I opened my computer to begin work, I realized the email – you know the one that I stressed so much over and neglected my children for – never even sent. It wasn’t on my desktop; it wasn’t in my drafts folder; it wasn’t in my sent box; It was nowhere to be found. I laughed a little on the inside, realizing all of my mistakes at once. I rewrote the email – probably a much better version since I wasn’t so rushed – and sent it for real this time.
That night after I closed my computer, I began to grasp how involved I had been in my work and how uninvolved I had been in my family. I asked my daughters for forgiveness.
I said, “Will you please forgive mommy for being on her computer when I should have been spending time with you?”
My two-year-old replied without hesitation, “I forgive you mommy. It’s okay… Want to play dress up?”
I also asked God and my husband for forgiveness and patience. This particular night I desperately wanted a do-over, but while that night is gone, I can try harder to be better every day moving forward. God is showing me so much about the things that truly matter. How precious each and every day is.
I felt so much relief after apologizing to my daughter and receiving her immediate forgiveness. Isn’t that the same way God responds to us? After we ask for forgiveness, He graciously forgives us. What an amazing God we have to accept us for all of our faults, encourage us through others to be better and love us no matter what.
Can you think of a time you wish you had a do-over?
Cassie is co-founder of themommies.org a blog by two moms who love to celebrate, encourage and share our daily wins and challenges in motherhood and faith. We believe it’s the little things in life that are the things that truly matter and God is sending us tiny miracles every day if we open our eyes and heart enough to see them. We know being a mom is the best and hardest job we will ever have the honor of calling our title and that’s why we created a space to share our journey.