Redeeming Our Flaws: What We Can Offer God This Lenten Season

Mom with Flaws

Tears dripped hot as I tried to suppress the sobs that threatened to escape.  I sat at my son’s bedside wishing I could undo what had happened earlier.  There he slept peacefully unaware of my turmoil only inches away.

Children see us at our best and also at our worst. It’s hard to hide our raw humanity from the ones we call family. That night my humanity had been exposed yet again in the form of anger. Anger that had started innocently enough as frustration had given birth to impatience and rapidly escalated into a verbal tidal wave. Quick and fierce.

I wouldn’t consider myself an angry person, and it’s only been in the past few years that I’ve felt this struggle with intense negative emotion. I recognize its beginnings, but its rapid climb seems out of my control. Before I can stop the clenched teeth, it’s over just as quickly as it began. This leaves me bewildered and ashamed, ushering out apologies and trying to explain my actions in a manner that a four year old and two year old can understand.

Flawed Gift

So I sit by his bed needing mended from a tear that feels self-inflicted.  My silent prayers for forgiveness and help cause the tears to flow faster.

I hear myself asking, “Can you use this God? Even this?”

We expect God to use our talents and gifts but what about the not so flattering things?  The things that bring us shame and that make us feel flawed. 

The season of Lent is spent reflecting on Christ, his suffering, and the redemption that He brings.  God used the brutal, messy, ugly death of his son on the cross to offer redemption to us. Because of this, he can use our flawed moments as well.  If he couldn’t, what hope would we have?

In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace that he lavished on us with all wisdom and understanding. Ephesians 1:7-8

As we journey thru this time of Lent, maybe you don’t just need to give up something you love like social media, coffee, or T.V. for 40 days.  Maybe you need to give God the area of your life where you feel the most shame, discouragement, or darkness.  Ask him to redeem it for His glory. Take it before him, lay it down, and trust.

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

– Gungor

What area of your life do you need to lay at the cross? Where do you need the redeeming love of Christ to cover you right now?

Lindsay Sig

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    Jenevieve says

    Lindsay, thanks so much for this post and your honesty. It really speaks to me as I am trying to be better at not saying the wrong thing in my moments of anger. I love your reminder that Lent is a time to focus on redemption and letting God heal us. Be blessed!!!!
    Jenevieve

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    says

    Thanks Jenevieve! I had written this in my journal, and I’m sure I’ll need to reread it often myself. I’m trying to focus on His redemption rather than my giving up something during this season…day by day.

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